There are always too many things around. Just like this week, something about shool and something about my friend(it's the most important I think). But I just can do nothing though I want. And I can't stop thinking about it.
I want to think something deeply, but the world don't let me to do so. I just want to know more about the world and about it's truth. I've failed. I feel that I an just one of the discards of society and the world.
I want to show that I'm alive.


I forgot many things completely because I want to think something deeply.
I don't know whether I love China.
Chinese is my mother tongue after all and I must be afraid of living in other countries. But I don't want to stay in China for all my life.
My mum don't want me to go abroad.


Well there are too many things. They almost drive me crazy.